Hi ladies,

Ok so I’m 16 years old in year 11 and for 3 years I’ve been struggling with depression, and self harm (there is also I little bit of anxiety in there as well). Ever since I was little when I got mad I use to slam my head against things and through myself of the floor and bash my legs and arms into the floor as hard as I could. One day I was really upset and was bashing myself against anything and I had a pair of scissor on the floor close by and before I knew it I had cuts of my arms. And it helped for a little bit and took my mind of my pain on to something new and ever since then I haven’t been able to stop. I started dating my boyfriend last year and we’ve been together for almost 8 months and he know a lot, he’s the only one I’ve told and for a while there he was helping, but then we got stuck with this whole quarantine thing and can no longer help me like he use to. Not only am I stressed with my new work load from school and my job, but I also miss him so much which isn’t helping because I get an overwhelming feeling of sadness and loneliness. I haven’t had the easiest life either. My self harm is really upsetting my boyfriend and I don’t want to do it anymore, I’ve tried to stop but I need help, and my boyfriend can’t always be there to help me, so I think I need to tell my parents but that’s going to he really hard because my dad once caught me hurting myself in my room and told me not to tell mum and that he would help me but he didn’t speak of it again and didn’t check up on me until a couple months later when he asked me “have you stopped” I lied. My mum had also mad a comment on people who hurt themselves are only seeking attention and want to die they are just to weak to do it, so I don’t know how to tell them and I need help please.

If you made it to the end thank you so much and please health me.

I’m only 16 and i want to live my life without pain.