I'm a mess.

I'm honestly just so depressed because of the way my life is at the moment. I'll be the first one to say "life is what you make of it, if something makes you unhappy, change it." But, this time its not that simple. My boyfriend and I have been doing long distance for the last 6 or 7 months which has been super hard for me. The virus made him lose his job (the reason we were long distance), so he came back within driving distance of me so we could at least see each other on weekends. We both live with family now, so we can only do visits. (And by the way living with my family has been the worst, nothing but arguments and negativity). We both lost our jobs due to the virus, we just don't have the money or financial stability to get our own place right now. Both of our jobs are so close to opening up, which is great, but also brings me down because I know we will go back to long distance for who knows how long. Now, the fact that yesterday was mother's day really brought my depression level up a notch. I work very part time at a gas station and people were saying happy mothers day and asking if I have kids and every time I said no, I just felt so sad about it. Then I got home and started scrolling thru social media and that's when the tears just came flowing out. All these mothers, celebrating, happy and grateful to have their kids & I want nothing more than that, but for some reason it just isn't happening for me. I'm almost 27, and all I want is to be a mother and have a beautiful family with my boyfriend, but how can we even try when we are long distance? I feel defeated by life.