My vent.. Please vent to me too❤. You matter!

I'm 17 weeks pregnant with baby #2 and my LO is almost 9 months old.

During my first pregnancy my fiance and I got into a huge fight (while his parents were visiting) and they all left every day (like 8am till 1am) for 3 days in a row after a huge screaming match, and after bunch of other stuff..

Anyway, it was really a traumatic experience, and to top it off once his parents left my best friend told me that he had messaged OUR ex boss to go for drinks and stuff with him (during the 3 days gone)..

I was humiliated, all my old friends knew.. "poor me, pregnant with a man who tried to cheat", and my self confidence was shattered, I felt fat and ugly..

Now fast forward to this pregnancy, SAME THING HAPPENED!

His mom came to visit for a planned visit of OVER A MONTH, we all got into a fight and they all left again.

This time for a month.. he hardly came home. If he did it was at 1am or later and would leave at about 9am again..

I found out he downloaded tinder (again, by my best friend), saw he added a bunch of girls he doesnt know on Instagram and to top it off his mom encourages them that "if you not getting any at home, you need to find it somewhere else"..

During this pregnancy he's telling me not to get as fat as I did last time, told me that my boobs are really small but I can fix them, masturbates almost everyday, doesnt touch me...

The point is... I want to leave. I know I need to leave.

But at the moment I've got no where to go with this virus going around, I'm stuck here and I'm getting depressed..

I just need to vent, and hopefully hear some ideas of how to get through it until we can leave.

And hopefully be an ear for other woman to vent who feel trapped or lost and have no one to speak to during this time.

I hope to be your shoulder to lean on too, a lot of us need one more than ever right now. ❤