Anxiety/depression/body dysmorphia

So lately I’ve developed a loathing of myself I.e. my body and my face. I used to love how I looked and just hate my personality and my family life (that’s another story) but now I’ve started to develop a hatred of how my body looks and how I look. I’m constantly looking at my self in the mirror or in pictures and getting completely disgusted to myself to the point where I shut myself out from everyone and curl up in a ball and cry for hours. I feel like I’m driving my boyfriend away from me when I do this because I’ll tell him how I think I’m ugly and how I think I’m fat and different things about me I hate and I just feel like he won’t want to be with me if I continue to talk about the way I feel. I’ve had anxiety and depression for about four years now and just recently stopped taking my SSRI a couple months ago. In addition to how I feel about myself I’ve started to disassociate more frequently now and have panic attacks because of it. If anyone has any tips or support on this it would be greatly appreciated.