Dear Danny...

We matched on tinder and we met up twice. We hooked up both times but I had a feeling you wanted more. We talked for about a month and you were always so sweet to me and so nice. You were one of the first people to show actual interest in me and cared for me and saw past my flaws. For that I thank you for making me more confident with myself. You always invited me to cookouts with your roommates but I could never go because I had to work. I wish I could have at least gone once, I heard they were great. Yesterday (05/13/20), I was going through your Instagram and saw one of your ex’s tagged you in a post. The picture was of you and her together, the caption was about you. When I started reading it I figured it was just a post bashing you or something but I kept reading. When I read that you had died I didn’t believe it. I managed to find your roommates Facebook and saw a post confirming your death. According to comments on the post and posts by other people, I found that at 5am on Mother’s Day (05/10/20) you were in a motorcycle accident not even 10 minutes away from your house. Although we only talked for a month and you ended up ghosting me, I still cared about you. Now I wish I could be there to support your roommates but I don’t want to be known as a crazy stalker since all I knew from you was your Snapchat and your instagram. Now here I am, not knowing how to process this information and all I can do is cry since I did care about you. I never got to say bye to you and for that I’m truly sorry since I never wanted to hurt you. I deserved to be ghosted, I made you feel like I was just using for your body because that’s what other people had made me feel like. The last time I saw you I had told you I couldn’t stay the night and we went to your room and hooked up and cuddled until you fell asleep and I had to leave. I so desperately wanted to kiss you while you slept to say bye but I figured I would just let you sleep. Now I wish I had done that and I don’t know how to deal with your death since we didn’t get as close as we could have.

Thank you for showing me actual kindness and showing me your goofy side. It sucks that you only got to experience 20 years of life but you died doing what you loved most: riding your motorcycle. I will miss you Danny. Thank you.