How the hell do I make friends

I’m 18 and I haven’t had a real friend since I was 16 and all we would do is smoke together and do drugs. I struggled with substance abuse after that and my boyfriend helped me move on and be sober. Whenever I tell someone I’m sober they think I’m just a prude but that stuff makes me a terrible person. I was stealing from people I love and ruined my trust with my mother. I cut my friends off because they would peer pressure me like hell and I was so easy to fold. It’s been almost 3 years and I cant make friends. I’m super awkward and nervous all the time and I think everyone finds me annoying(sorry for the pity party) My boyfriend had been trying to get me to talk to his friends girlfriends but they’re all so intimidating!!

I need advice on how to make friends and hold an actual convo