Why do I do this to myself 😣

I always find myself comparing my symptoms and how I felt during my TWW with my first pregnancy (which ended in a miscarriage). I’m only 5 DPO, and I’m already considering myself “out” because I don’t have sore breasts like I did last time I was pregnant. Can those who have had multiple pregnancies share their experiences with how they felt each time they were pregnant? I hate that I’m always comparing.