Finally feeling blessed to stay home

I was depressed since the start of the pandemic. Sorry in advanced for the rant! Had to cancel plans and postpone some almost indefinitely at this point. First time in my life I had nothing planned for my birthday and made myself a gooey brownie and munched in by myself almost crying. Cancelled our weeklong baby moon and 3 Michelin star restaurant dinner. Cancelled my maternity leave because I had to quit my job due to my family’s increasing stress of me going out to work. It was absolutely my perfect job and safest! 5 minutes commute, great pay, awesome hours, private lab with complete gowning, minimal human existence, and great support from management but it still wasn’t enough for my family as they kept nagging until I just gave up. Postponed our plans to renovate the entire house before the arrival of the baby but now it seems like he would be lucky to have his nursery set up before he turns one 🤦🏻‍♀️ even when all the structural and everything needed for the construction are approved, the city government is taking forever to give us the permit to start 😔 . Had to cancel our first baby shower, cancel all the food and event bookings and stored away all the decorations as a memory 😏. It was going to be the first month I planned to go out with friends almost everyday to eat at restaurants without guilt since everyone else at home would be fasting the entire month due to religious reasons 😭 now it’s just a dream!!

But, currently this week I’m feeling somewhat blessed to be home 😅. I had back pain early on in the pregnancy but now it’s unbearable pain and most of the time I can’t move, sit or lie down properly. I’ve been diagnosed with gestational diabetes a few weeks ago and finally got into a good routine having a proper diet and checking blood sugar. This weekend we bought all the essentials for the baby from our registry and packed up hospital bag 😁. Booked up a garden for a quick maternity Photoshoot in two weeks 😊 bought some makeup to cheer myself up and practice for the shoot 😺 . I guess I needed some time of clarity to prepare my mind for the future. Baby due in 6 weeks! 🥰🥰