12dpo today and have been getting pretty bad indent lines on my pregmate tests so I went out and bought a box of first response and stark fucking negative. I’m so so so so DONE. I want to fucking scream. After months of trying and finally getting pregnant just to end up with it being a chemical and now months have passed and I can’t even get a fucking positive. It’s like every other female in my life has no trouble getting pregnant while I’m over here thinking it’s never gonna happen for me. I don’t know why they teach you in school that getting pregnant is easy because it definitely hasn’t been for me! On top of it hubbys on a work trip till the end of the week so I’m quarantined alone in this house with no distractions. I just want to give up. I hate this. All I want is my rainbow baby. It kills me that women can go out and have one night stands and boom pregnant meanwhile I’m over here with my S/O having sex every other day throughout my entire cycle and can’t even fucking get pregnant. And to top it off my cycles are like 35-40 fucking days long so I have to wait almost another month and a half to find out if I’ll be pregnant next month. I give up, universe. I guess I just wasn’t meant to be a mom 💔