I have to be up in about 5 hours to shower and head to the hospital and I’m so excited and anxious I can’t sleep for the life of me! This will be my 4th cesarean (and last) but still nerves. My 2 year old son and I have never once spent a night or day away from each other. He’s feeling some sort of way I think he senses it because he’s been super clingy and tonight emotional and crying randomly. I hate that I just put him to bed and won’t see him for a couple days . I’m feeling guilt as if he might think mom abandoned him. The last couple weeks he’s been trying to nurse again and constantly wanting his hand down my shirt. He hasn’t nursed since November. This is the closest I’ve had my kids in age. My oldest is 8years older than my second, who is 4 years older than my son. To say I’m nervous is an understatement!