How hard was it to have a second baby, after a traumatizing labor.

Which led to an emergency c.

We both lost died. He had to be restated.

I know I would have to have another c section.

Because I will not undergo the vaginal surgery my doctor wants, to make my vagina the normal woman’s size.

Instead of child size.

But I really can’t stop thinking that I would really like to try for a daughter Or another boy.

My husband really wants a baby girl.

he is scared I would die in labor though and so am I.