Ok so me and my husband have been trying to have a baby. We started august last year and still nothing. This is the third cycle that I have been using opks to somewhat confirm ovulation. I have also bought a bbt thermometer but it hasn’t arrived yet. I take folic acid and register my periods so I can get a grasp of when the right time is. Literally the only thing he has to do is to stick it in. And sometimes he doesn’t!

He asked me last week when the “good days” were and I said next week, which is this one. Yesterday I told him it was one of the really good ones confirmed by the strip. We had stuff going on in the afternoon and got home late. He was tired, watched a bit of tv and we went to bed.

And I was furious. I mean... all this “it happens when it happens” shit is all good but man! Every time someone talks about kids he’s like “I’m so jealous, I want that too”. Well then... have sex with me when I tell you to!!

We’ve “only” been trying for 9 months but every time that I think I’ve not done enough, or he hasn’t, I get seriously annoyed. And he doesn’t understand that i feel like a failure when I haven’t managed to get pregnant after nearly a year. He says that it will come and that when the virus is over and we can go to the doctor we will. But I don’t need a doctor, I need him to do what he has to do when the time is right 🤦🏼‍♀️

I’ve tried explaining how pregnancy and conceiving works and even though he says he understands I really don’t think he realises how really small the chance is every month.

Don’t get me wrong, normally we do it as much as we can and I really don’t know how I’m NOT pregnant yet, but since I got my peak yesterday and we talked about I got mad. Maybe that’s just the ovulation hormones messing with my temper 😒

Sorry, rant over.