I want to start pole

I’m coming up to an anniversary I mourn over; the day I was raped. Since then, I’ve felt so lost with my body and with myself as a person. I want to be able to feel beautiful and confident in myself but I haven’t found a way how.

Looking at pole dancing, (not exotic) I see these young people telling a story with there body, having fun, feeling like they can fly. I want to do that. I want to tell a story through dance, one I could feel like flying with.

I’m 16. I don’t want to do pole for t sake of sexual desire and arousal, but for the sake of self love and self confidence. But I don’t know how to approach my parents about this. My mother would be more understanding but my father is conservative and wouldn’t be impressed with the idea. I need your thoughts.