Realising I’m done with our marriage

So me and my husband have always had a fiery marriage. Lots of arguments and problems along the way but when things are good, it’s beyond amazing. During my pregnancy things started to take a turn and there were a lot more bad times than good. Now since our baby has been born and with being in lockdown for weeks, things have gotten unbearable. This week I’ve suddenly realised I don’t want to be in this marriage anymore. He’s completely changed as a person and is so uncaring and rude to me that I’ve realised I am no longer attracted to him because of the person he has become. I suspect he probably feels the same way too as I can’t be who I was anymore in this situation.

I won’t go into things that he has done because it’s not about the little (and sometimes big) things anymore. I don’t know what to do. I’m aware that we’ve had our first baby and have been in lockdown over the past couple of months so things are totally different to how they might normally have been. I don’t want to walk away from this marriage if we can work at it for the sake of all three of us but I also don’t want my baby growing up in a loveless family. We tried counselling a few years ago and it really didn’t work as he would agree and listen in the session and then go crazy at me afterwards at home for the things I had said whilst we were there.

Thoughts on this would be really welcome.