Husband constantly rejects me sexually 🥺

So I'm modeling some lingerie I repurposed for him showing the progress and after I take it off (I'm naked) he asks if I'm trying to start something tonight and even though I said no he said just so you know I'm not in the mood tonight.

He's been frustrated at me before when I've tried to initiate.. while I was wearing nothing but an apron. He rejects me a lot.

This time he still was able to reject me while I was standing there naked even if I didn't say anything!

I don't understand him, sure I'm not in the best shape but I'm an average weight and I'm pretty curvy. I have to try and convince myself I'm beautiful, I haven't initiated sex for 3 weeks because I need to heal from being rejected often for two years. I keep realizing his sex drive is never going to match mine.. it's disappointing.