Pregnancy journey over.

Well, unfortunately my pregnancy journey is over.

I had a pregnancy confirmation appointment at the end of April, was measuring 6weeks and a day, saw a heartbeat and all.

Today went in for another appointment at 10 weeks 1 day and there was nothing there. What's weird is I knew that was going to happen... for some strange reason all day yesterday I kept thinking I'm going to go into this appointment and we won't see anything.

I never had any miscarriage symptoms at all. I didn't bleed, I didn't have cramping, absolutely nothing. My nausea has just actually let up within the last few days so I was starting to get more excited.

The doctor has no idea when I may have miscarried... I still have the sack and suck so I have to either take some pills or have a surgery since I'm not passing everything on my own.

I'm not sad about losing the baby, I know miscarriage is common within the first trimester... But I never thought I would be here. Not knowing I even miscarried. Feeling betrayed by my body because I still have positive pregnancy tests (literally just took one). I can't eat or smell certain foods or tolerate the taste of wine and beer. I haven't had a period since March or a sex drive for that matter (I was so horribly nauseous up until last week).

I know our time will come again, but right now I'm angry at my body.

*Baby dust to you beautiful Mamma's!*