Feeling crushed 💔

I had my first FET on 5/18

First beta came back low at 38

Second beta yesterday was 39.5

It’s not looking good. I’m devastated. I’ve been TTC for 4 years and to be honest, I’ve been waiting my whole life to see those 2 pink lines. And I FINALLY got them, but now it doesn’t seem to matter. I can do everything thing right and then my body decides it hates me. I just don’t understand. I’m just feeling very sad and it’s hard to stay hopeful 😭

So here’s my question, should I take off work today? I could probably make it through the day but I feel like I need a ‘me’ day. I don’t know. It sounds silly. My nurse is pretty sure she knows where this is headed but she scheduled me for another beta on Monday just to check.