I feel so hopeless and depressed

I realistically have not been trying for that long but in my head I feel like I know somethings wrong with me and that I’ll never have a child. Our first month trying ended in a CP miscarriage and we’ve had nothing since. Has anyone else felt this way? Usually i come into a cycle so embarrassingly hopeful and giddy and now I just feel like there’s absolutely no way I’m ever going to have a child of my own. I constantly google all of the things that could go wrong - it’s too early fir us to see an RE but I truly feel like Theres something wrong with me- there has to be. My anxiety and depression is so palpable, I feel like my brain is broken. Has anyone else been there? I feel like my spirit has been completely shattered and there’s no reason to be optimistic.