any tips?? at a real loss.

gonna try and make this short.

so i’m an f 20 and my boyfriend is 21. we’ve been together for about two years. our sex has been the same since we got together. same 3 positions, same routine, for two years. and i can’t do it anymore. i’ve discovered i have such a kinky side that i haven’t gotten to explore and any time i say we should do something of the sort (use handcuffs, vibrator, blindfolds, restraints, etc) he’ll act like he’s down for it but he forgets about it and then it’s not talked about again unless i bring it up, so i know he’s not interested. he’s never concerned about whether i’ve finished or not and yes, i feel like he cares about my pleasure, but he doesn’t know how to please me no matter how i’ve redirected him. he’s good at what he does when its in the moment, but i feel like anyone could be good at that as its literally just thrusting your pelvis frontward and backward. every time he rubs my clit he either does it too hard, not in the right spot, or he scratches me, even after two years of me trying to help him figure out how to do it in a way that works for me. i’m just at such a loss. i want to marry this man but he’s so lazy in bed when it comes to my end of the pleasure stick and i’m starting to feel like i’m trying to hard to make things more interesting, which makes me not even want sex anymore at all. i’ve even brought up to him DURING SEX because it got to that point and nothing changed. same routine. same 3 positions.