I’m lost.

Please keep this kind as I’m struggling and I don’t want to see negative comments.

My husband has done some god awful things in the first 2 years of our relationship. He has terrible coping mechanisms and he’s not mentally okay. He has had a very very bad life from the start. I know he had a lot of issues and doesn’t cope in the greatest ways. When things get hard he uses other women to help himself feel better. I mean before we met he has slept with at least 90 girls. ( he does not do this anymore, this only happened in the first year-2 )

unfortunately I have had trust issues. We have gone through some therapy and we have 3 kids. He’s not cheating and hes working his ass off while I go through school for our family. He has changed ALOT from the beginning to now. I see it. I know it. He’s on antidepressants that he can’t seem to find the right one. He’s a very depressed person. Which I understand why, I struggle also with mental health due to being raped and beat when I was in my younger teens. I was cheated on constantly and this dude always made sure I knew it. So this whole situation sucks. We hoth need more therapy and help to be able to be a healthy relationship. That was just a small back story. It’s rough

Our relationship is perfect other then one thing..

Because I struggle with trust, he has tendencies to hide things and not tell me things when that’s a big thing for me. He’s a very forgetful person and when things happen he forgets to mention something ( even if it’s so small ) and I get that but not when it’s the same excuse every time. Like there is a female from his work ( he’s a RN ) so he works with all females obviously every day and that doesn’t bother me at all! But this one specifically has bothered me for some reason. She’s always liking his pictures on social media of just him, but NONE of him and I. It’s always something to do with this specific girl. I don’t think he’s with her she married with tons of kids. I mean I do trust him but it bothers me that she asked him “ why did you delete my from fb “ he BLAMED ME !!!! When in fact I never even told him to! I just said I didn’t like her and don’t feel comfortable with her liking his pictures of only him but none of his family and he willingly deleted her. But he told her recently “ my wife made me delete you” and he didn’t tel me, I asked how work was and it got brought up. I just wanna know if I’m over reacting ?!

Last week on his gaming he has some girls in his group he specifically told me “ was only 4 guys “ why even bring up you play with 4 guys when you know 2 of them are women. . I didn’t even ask if they were girls or guys cause I don’t care it’s gaming for fucks sake. It’s the fact he hides things and doesn’t tell me.

He’s genuinely a good guy, he does bust his ass for his family and I know he’s not cheating it’s just this issue has bothered me since day 1. I just feel like I tel him when guys message me and what not but whenever it comes to him DOES NOT tell me anything unless I ask and get it out of him! And I don’t think it’s wrong when this bothers me. I feel like you should respect your partner and what bothers them work on changing? I don’t even know.

Ladies can you tel me if you think I’m over reacting? I don’t know if I am or just super defensive and put a wall up on behind afraid of being hurt.