Just need to vent...I guess

I dont hate my life, but I don't particularly like the life we've built. I saw wee, because my boyfriend and myself have a 15 month old and a newborn on the way. I am full of emotions right now, however, I just really dont like him sometimes. He's a good person though. He's a hard worker and helper and provider, but he has a problem with his drinking. When he does, he becomes a completely different person and the 3 years we've been together has been a rollercoaster of emotions because of it. Since COVID we've moved into a new house and it's been okay. He's working from home and I'm home as well. We're ok being home together I guess because we're used to it. We used to work together for like 4 years and it was a nightmare, especiallywhenwe started dating. Anyway, I just am not attracted to him anymore and he says he still is, but I don't believe it at all. We don't say I love you anymore. We don't touch, don't kiss, anything. I just feel stuck. Am I wrong for having these feelings? I'm not happy about us being together or being pregnant a second time. The only thing that makes me happy from all this is my 15 month old Olivia.