Having a meltdown

I’m pregnant 7 weeks and 3 days! And I have two kids with autism 2 & 7 I live in a super tight 1 bedroom apartment after my nasty divorce. I’m constantly sick throwing up headaches etc. even with all this I clean my ass off in this house and my kids always destroy it like I mean they hide food under places and I wont know until it starts to stink there’s just toys I mean toys everywhere no matter how many times I pick them up. Garbage food cups under the couch my room is trashed after cleaning it a million times sharing a room isn’t easy. I have my family who talks shit about me because my house is upside down and stinks and I do my very fucking best I clean every fucking day. I’m not in my condo where there was space and two bedrooms I’m not in my old lifestyle I just been crying and I just feel like giving up sometimes. There dad isn’t in there life anymore it’s just me. And my dad took my car and sold it now I have to wait to register my new one I ask him to take us to the store and he tells me no. I should be in the house I’m not fat and fucking lazy like him who sits home all day with there kids we want to get out to. I’m ranting I’m hurt I’m upset idk what to do anymore I’m just sitting here looking at this fucking mess after I cleaned it 5x yesterday