This month has been one of the worst ever... I found out after experiencing the worst pain in my life that I had a kidney stone a month ago. About 2 weeks after that the pain started again, but worse, and I happened to be one day late. Even though I knew it was unlikely, I took a test before heading to the hospital again just to be sure and it was faint, but it was there.

So not only were they not really able to give me much pain relief, I am unable to now have the procedure to have the stone removed. I've met with a urologist who said our best bet is to see if it passes naturally. But it's been a month, and I'm so worried.

I've had ultrasounds for the stone and one at the same time to see if they could see the gestational sac as the tech suspected an ectopic on top of everything else... So now I'm living in such uncertainty. I'm so worried about losing my kidney, and losing this pregnancy. Hoping next week I'll have another ultrasound and see if they can see anything this time if it's viable or not..

I hate not being able to be allowed to even get excited. After two miscarriages, I just don't know how much more I can take of this. 😩