I’m not coping. FTM.

I had my baby less than a week ago. I didn’t feel a sense of love for her that I thought it would. I feel like she is a chore, I hate being a mum. I have a supportive husband and he has been doing so much. I feel so sad all of the time. I feel trapped and overwhelmed. I hate looking after her, I hate that I struggled to breastfeed and now I’m formula feeding, I hate burping her, I hate interacting with her. I know I love her but I don’t feel it. I want her to be happy and healthy.

I spoken to my midwife already because I can’t keep feeling this way. She contacted my GP and I was called within an hour. I do feel like I have support from them. Although it will be weeks maybe months before i can get counselling but I have a prescription to pick up on Monday of anti-depressants. I never expected to feel like this but I made a promise to myself before giving birth if I ever experienced any sort of mental health issues after birth I wouldn’t suffer in silence without professional help. I don’t feel like hurting myself but I can’t keep going on feeling like this. I don’t know what to do, what to think. I have no energy or motivation to do anything.