weight Issues & Insecurities

so recently i got to the biggest i’ve ever been for my build and height. my problem is my weight is always up and down and i’ve ALWAYS been insecure about my size. The photo on the left was about 1-2 years ago and even at a small weight compared to what i got to, i thought i was fat. i’ve never worn a bikini in public and i hate having sex with the lights on or sex at all due to being self consious nude.

i am soo unhappy at my current weight and want to shed a little bit of weight to gain confidence but i also need to work on self love.

can everyone give me some self love tips and ways to get over insecurities