To test or not to test 🙃

My husband and I decided to begin TTC baby no. 2 this summer, it haven’t really started yet.

I had been on birth control after baby no. 1. But went off in like February, because I ran out of my prescription and we had moved/I hadn’t found a new doctor/knew we would be trying again this year/etc. so we have just been using condoms since. My periods aren’t as regular as they were on birth control (they always started on the same day almost down to the same time of day), but they are still pretty regular (ex. sometimes I’ll start on Thursday instead of Wednesday). I officially started tracking using the app during my last period in May. We had unprotected sex twice “around” ovulation one the 18th and 29th.

I had some symptoms I don’t usually had during PMS such as nausea a few days the first week of June and I’ve had some quick sharp pains around my hip bone (which I had with my first).

I marked on the app that my period started on the 11th (I was suppose to start on the 10th), because I thought I had but it ended up just being a little spotting (was red, not pinkish which is what I have heard implantation bleeding looks like), and I don’t recall implantation bleeding with my first. Yesterday (12th) and today (13th) I haven’t had anything. I don’t want to test yet, because I have read to much into “symptoms” before and tested early then was disappointed. I told myself I would wait until Monday to test if AF doesn’t show. But, I feel like I’m driving myself crazy waiting. 🙃

I just needed to get all of that out, I haven’t talked to my husband about it because if I am pregnant I want him to be surprised when I tell him.