Sexuality confusion/unconventionally attractive people appreciation post

I keep trying to convince myself that I’m not pan but that’s the perf description for my sexuality. I catch feels regardless of gender and it’s usually the last thing i think about when crushing on someone. But I have more guy crushes than girl crushes and I’m psyching myself out. I like hot masculine guys and cute femboys and sexy masculine girls and adorable feminine girls and ever-so confusing yet enticing androgynous anyone(girl/guy/nb/goblin/idc) like-

And I don’t really find conventionally attractive people hot. Like I just don’t. There has to be something that is not socially acceptable for me to find someone attractive. Short guys and tall girls and emo/fairy/gothic/goblin/lolita aesthetics and a little extra curves in the wrong places and black/brown eyes(very underrated, they’re little pools of honey or mysterious like the void) and dark makeup and overly sparkly makeup and very eccentric makeup and weird tattoos and random scars and awkwardness and you can still be attractive with acne, and the point is I’m confused and lonely and DAMNIT YOU’RE GORGEOUS. (Also what is up with black eyes being inferior to other colors, they are so damn hot.)