i’m tired

hi i’m sasha:) lately i’ve felt so so tired and i just want everything to stop it’s really hard for me to tell my family because every time i say that i want everything to just end my family responds with “you’re too young to be sad” “all you do is lay around all day” or “ you get everything you want stop saying stupid things like that” they think that them giving me material things will make me happy.. i mean it will temporarily but i’m always going to feel horrible i’m just so over everything i feel so used by everyone as well as if i’m the second choice i’ll never be first to anyone.. i also can’t help but feel like every one is better than i am and i cant do anything right i wish i just had someone to talk to or even someone to hold me i just want to feel loved