Finding out vs not finding out 💓💙

Anyone else battling with this decision?

I've lost 2 babies and I'm currently pregnant again. We never found out with our stillborn so when I delivered our baby and knew we had a baby boy despite the circumstances we were thrilled. I'm so torn as to whether or not we should find out the sex this time? Keep thinking it with help me created a bond with our baby and be less fearful as PAL is so hard, but then I think the not knowing keeps me excited and more looking forward to the birth.