I found out my husband watched porn a few times the week i came home from hospital with our newborn.

I have never cared if he watches porn or not, but he has always denied doing it. To find out though he watched it two days after I gave birth, I just feel really insecure. I posted earlier when I intentionally found out. I’m posting again because after calming down and reflecting, I realize what upset me so much about it.

First, I think it’s just horrible timing. I just came home from hospital and it seems gross he did it in the other room when I’m holed up in bed with the baby. But secondly, and primarily, I feel really gross and insecure about my post partum body. Idk why or what to do.

When I was around 30 weeks I told my husband to jerk off when I wasn’t in the mood. He acted all offended and said he wouldn’t do that and blah blah. For some reason I was okay with it then, but feel sensitive about it now. It feels different that it’s post partum, only two weeks so