Feeling like a bad mom...

So this is my 2nd pregnancy. I have a 19 month old boy. And our dream was to have one of each. So at my 20 week ultrasound, the picture that the tech gave me was very very hard to tell if it was a boy or a girl. And I had multiple people on here tell me they thought it was a girl with swollen parts. But we never set it into our heads if it was one or the other. Well I went for my 36 week ultrasound today and it turns out it’s very very much a boy. I’m a little disappointed about the whole thing because we aren’t having anymore kids and I won’t get to experience having a little girl and neither will my husband. I feel like a horrible person and mother for even being upset about the whole thing.

I just needed to let out my feelings. 😞