When I was 14 when I started dating my abuser. I had never had a boyfriend, boys just weren’t that into me before him. So my thought was that I would never find anyone else to love me like he did. It was a very abusive relationship. It was mostly emotional abuse until the end. From the beginning I had refused to do anything physical apart from kissing. I wasn’t ready for that because I was so young. I felt to immature for it. He and I continued the relationship despite that slight setback. But because I wouldn’t do anything with him, he would go out and cheat on me. He would flirt with other girls, go to there houses, and literally have sex with them. It wrecked me every time. But I stayed because I didn’t have anyone else. He was very controlling of me and territorial. He could cheat on me but if I had a guy friend the world was ending. Then my junior year, he started to say things like “you owe me” and he would tell me that after 2 years it was the least I could do. He would also say these things to my friends with me sitting right there. I was so scared for him to leave me with no one. I didn’t want him to leave so one night after his constant begging, I gave in. I said okay quietly and we went into the bathroom so no one would hear. It hurt so bad I was crying. When he was done we got dressed and went back and sat on the couch. He was trying to hug me and hold me but I felt so used and so vulnerable I sat there with my legs crossed completely out of it. Eventually he left but I was so messed up I don’t even remember going to bed. Now that I finally ended things I see how manipulated I was. And losing my virginity with him has been hard because it’s been haunting me ever since. I feel like I need some sort of justice. Some sort of way to bring the power back to me because ever since I have felt powerless. Should I confront him? He has since gone into the army and finally left this town so I don’t have to see him anymore but I still feel like he robbed something from me.