Felt guilty

My daughter is 9 months and I’ve been a sahm since she was born. I left her once with my SIL for a date night w me and my husband at 3 months old. And last week with my MIL to get a new battery for my car. Well yesterday I left the house for 3 hours for an oil change target and eye dr appt. and it felt so good! I’ve never had time to myself in forever I came home and wanted to leave again lol. I showered and sanitized everything I touched due to covid then husband hands me our daughter and I was like ughhh I don’t want her I felt so bad. Not that I don’t want her it get good having time to myself. All day I get that way with her ☹️ I was still caring for her doing the usual. I wake up today and I’m fine! Had this happened to anyone?