reposting in another group!

i won't make this terribly long, but i'm moving to a different state at the end of this month. my best friend of 10 years basically just doesn't treat me like her other friends. on my 22nd birthday, she bought me pink wine. to anyone else, this would be a nice thing but EVERYBODY knows i HATE pink wine 😭 i feel like all the gifts i've gotten her are tailored to her and she just gets me whatever. it's fine, ig. besides that, i'm moving and she just hasn't been talking to me. like i feel like she's ignoring me. we've had conversations about how i feel like she treats me differently and nothing has changed.

i want to be able to fall back and focus on myself. i care about my friends deeply because i didn't really have emotionally available parents growing up, so friendships are really important to me. i broke down this morning because i just don't think i can continue with this. how do i go about being more intentional with myself? i want to be able to not be disappointed with people close to me because of expectations :/