Mom guilt

My LO is a terrible sleeper, always has been. We’ve tried everything. Every time we find something that seems to help her sleep better, it only seems to work for a few days then she’s back to her old habits.

Her naps are only 30 minutes unless she’s held. At night, the longest stretch we get from her is 1.5-2 hours. But she pretty much keeps waking every hour. And I have to settle her then hold her for usually at least 10 minutes before setting her down again. But half the time, as soon as I’m in tr process of leaning over to set her down, her eyes pop wide open and she starts fussing.

Drowsy but awake doesn’t work, fully awake definitely doesn’t. I tried to let her cry it out at one point at pediatrics s suggestion, but she just screamed and screamed - she wasn’t learning to self soothe and it made me feel like a horrible mommy.

Last night, She woke up 8 times.... the longest stretch of sleep I got before her dad took over was maybe 45 minutes. I’m so sleep deprived and I’m getting so frustrated at night. At one point I just wanted to scream bc I couldn’t handle it anymore. But then I feel so guilty bc I love her so much and I know it’s not her fault. So then I sat and cried for 15 minutes....

She’s 15 weeks tomorrow so I don’t know if it’s gotten so bad over the past couple nights bc this is the sleep regression starting early. Or is this just her sleep habits and it’s going to get worse, which is terrifying. I just want sleep so I can be he best mommy for her...feels like

Everything I do is wrong!