Good morning ladies. Lately I’ve been wondering and doubting my relationship a lot. I hate the feeling because I have invested in this relationship so much, but I just don’t feel the same anymore...

Here’s a little backstory regarding my relationship I’ve been with my SO for almost 3 years, he hasn’t been the best of partners just September 2019 I’ve caught him with a whole Tinder profile and messages between him and two women, a top of that one called when I was in the car with him. That pretty much made me walk away from the relationship and call it quits. 5 months later I gave him another chance (I know, I know) and I moved back in again with him (🤦🏻‍♀️) thinking that the relationship will be better and he was a changed man. Big NO!

We got back in February and we are in July now, he started off well the first month but he went back to talking down on me, not really being affectionate, arguing over very little small things and pretty much not apologizing as always, blaming it all on me, and what pissed me off the most is that at one point he mentioned that the girl that called him was someone in the past that just gave him a call which I went in on him and he had nothing to say about it and told me to go to sleep...the hell?

Our relationship has been pretty rocky but I always try to see the good in this man, but it never fails for me to see the selfish, narcissistic, negative guy he is. He has me but failed to show me the change, failed to show me the love and affection I need and I feel like I walk on eggshells with him because he gets mad about everything. I don’t hear from him all week, no texts or calls maybe at night for not even a minute to check in but that’s rare. If I go out with friends on a weekend that’s about the only time he blows up my phone...there is just so much and now, now I have taken this blind fold off my eyes and really am starting to see the big picture there is so many cons over pros that I just don’t know. It’s what benefits him and not us or even think about me...

I’m living with him so now it’s the choice of leaving and saying it’s over, but I don’t even no were to start. I have myself to blame to think someone who has failed me time and time again would change. I have no money right now to move out but can’t say I can’t save it. It’s time I need but it’s so complicated... I just needs someone advice who has been through something like this to help me think.

Thank you!