Baby shower this weekend

So my baby shower is finally this weekend and I honestly don’t want to even have one at this point. With COVID I feel like I’ve missed out on a lot of pregnancy stuff. And I’m not the kind of person that likes to upset people and it’s frustrating. I have one really close friend who decided she was gonna throw my shower. My parents are the weird type and offer money when needed but don’t really want to be bothered with the details. My best friend literally has barely done anything for my shower we keep planning to meet up and get stuff done and she keeps changing the plans last minute because “listing and selling this house is a priority right now” (she’s a realtor). It honestly really hurt my feelings. I feel like no one cares about me and my pregnancy and I’m really sad about it. She keeps asking me to do things and then decides we aren’t doing it. When it came to her shower I spent so much money and she told me and her mom she didn’t want to be involved with planning it so we didn’t involve her. I feel like I work so hard to please everyone but when it comes to myself no one wants to do anything for me. My bridal shower she complained the whole time to me and now I honestly just want to cancel my baby shower. She wants to have it at her new house to save money but I was only allowed to invite 15 people because she didn’t want a lot of people in her house ( which I understand) but I suggested having it somewhere else and she refused. I just don’t even know what to do. I want to have a normal baby shower so bad but I feel like this whole thing is just making me so sad and I don’t what to do.