What do I do

I have a 6 month old Little boy who has Down’s syndrome.

With that being said I’m not able to go back to work because no daycare in my area will accept him because of the DS.

My husband is forcing me to get my job back and go back to work.

I’m sorry but I’m NOT comfortable in any way leaving our son with an individual I just can’t bring my self to do it. I’m scared if I tell him no he will divorce me and then I’ll have to do joint custody and again I’m not willing to do that. I can’t even take a shower without him yelling at me to come get him because he’s crying.

What do I do and how do I tell him no?