Hey ladies. Ill try to keep it short. Try. My grandparents raised me, and are my absolute WORLD. I call them mom and dad. Anyone who knows me, knows how dear they are to me. Well, my 86 (soon to be 87 year old) dad is in the hospital, and not doing well... at ALL. This is a man who has rarely ever had anything wrong with him, has always been the backbone of the family.... and now the drs are talking about possible hospice (end of life) care if he doesn’t improve soon.

My boyfriend of 5 years knows how close I am to them, and how I cannot handle the thought of losing them. Well, since my dad went to the hospital Monday I have been staying at the house with my mom. They have been married 60+ years and can’t bear living without one another. A real life Notebook couple. So I have been helping her, helping my (birth) mom with my dad.... going between the hospital and my parents house....etc.

My boyfriend has been at home (working from home). He has called and texted to check up to see how things are going... has been on the phone with me and heard me crying horribly all throughout the week... yet, here it is Saturday... he didn’t have to work today, and he mentioned maybe coming to see me today (I’m about an hour and fifteen minutes away from our house)... and then today comes... and he had his haircut (fine), then he went to the gym... (okay).... then when I text to see if he’s coming, he tells me, “maybe, I’m at the gym and kinda tweaked my back again...” I told him he didn’t have to come if he actually hurt his back...but then he tells me he went to get his truck washed and is just kinda sore.

I mentioned twice I really would like to see him... he pretty much said “yeah I know”.... and changed the subject. I haven’t expressed that my feelings are hurt, but they are. This is the worst time I’ve ever gone through with my sweet parents, and he has kinda given the bare minimum of support. Am I trippin?? I have been a nervous wreck, ball of tears, barely slept all week and the gym was more important?

Thank you for reading this far if you have, I just needed to vent I guess. Damn my heart hurts. 😔