Was a “big girl”(possible trigger?)

About 3-4 years ago I was over weight for my height(4’10-now 5’0) and in the beginning it didn’t really bug me but I soon started having major self image issues or just how I saw body.

Back then I thought if I lost that weight and became skinny like other girls or my friends, then I’d look better overall. But now that I’m 120 ish pounds, I still have self image issues. I still see myself as a “big girl” but I’m not.

I used to have to wear large and extra large shirts and even now that I can fit into mediums and some smalls, I still have the thought of “oh this isn’t going to fit. I’m too chubby for that. It’s going to look awful on me” or “I can’t pull that off. I’m not skinny enough to pull that off”.

And I know that is such a toxic way of thinking and I’m trying to get better about how I see myself and try to accept that I’m fine the way I am; but it’s honestly so hard to do that.

If you decide to comment, please don’t be negative towards me.