A little gossip...Weird relationship!

I met a man online with a lot of secrets that he revealed a little at a time. He has done so many amazing things in his life, but also made some shitty decisions that I don’t agree with. Married 3 times, wants a lot of kids (he currently has 6 kids by 5women) and wants more. After 5weeks of getting to know each other on FaceTime and voice calls. I drove to meet him in person, he had everything set up for me, hotel, food and took very good care of me 💯. PS... Sex was amazing, we had sex 4 times in 24hrs. Never done that! I’m a little bit of a freak under the sheets and he is the opposite (a lover) slow, deep, steady, long lasting... lol. He is incredibly smart and is well traveled. But his heart is just so bruised from all his life experiences with women. Mommy issues.

Here’s the issue.... from day one he has told me he has a weakness for women. But, he wants someone by his side that is loyal and would not get into her feelings about him being with other women. He desires a companion. He wants a woman to do life with him while he reaches his goals and help her be the best version of her too. He is goal driven and he achieves most of what he says he will do. Right now, we are working on a big project together.

On different occasions he admitted that he liked me a lot and he even said he loves me. BUT last night he wanted to discuss his vision for us. I see us like “friends with benefit” but he wants us to do life together with no judgement on what he does. He is afraid I will leave his side or what we will build together because of his weakness (women). I honestly am going along for the ride and enjoy this new experience. So, as much as I liked having sex with him and talking to him, I’m not trying to get attached. But it’s hard to connect with someone and not have feelings for them.

So...I told him, if he is going to do what he wants and rather not be in a committed relationship, he needs to understand I will do the same. Interesting, he struggles with the thought that I would want to be with someone other than him. BUT little does he know that I go on dates and I plan on having sex with other men. I don’t want to keep myself reserved for one man and he is doing his own thing.

What do you think? Waste of time?