Testing improperly

Ugh, so a large part of me knows I test wrong, as in I took my test not during the first morning pee... but I get so antsy and there are times when I forget because I wake up so early in the morning (4am thanks puppy dog.) And I don't want to wake my husband up. I want to be able to surprise him when it does happen.

So... I was supposed to start my period today but so far, nothing really and I'm just not sure if it's gonna come. I hope it isn't of course, but I try not to get my hopes up. I try not to get my hopes up too much but sometimes I do. Especially when I feel like I have line eyes.

Does any one else do this?

How do you help yourself not do this? Or does anyone else do this?

Like today I thought I had a faint line, but I can't even take it seriously cause I know I didn't test correctly.