Depression while pregnant

Hello ladies I’m currently 7 weeks exactly and my depression is really kicking in, I would like to think this as a safe place so I’m gonna tell you all I don’t want this fetus..Friday (7-24-2020) I made an appointment for an abortion this coming Monday because I’m hating how this thing is making me feel, I sleep all day, my feelings get hurt waaaaay to easily, I can’t eat anything, I throw up all my favorites and the list goes on but most of all it’s affecting my mental state, like I decided to cancel the appointment for the father’s sake and all but it doesn’t change the fact that I don’t want it and I hate everything I’m going through because of it and I have a ton of support but no one truly understands where I’m coming from so if any of you are feeling how I’m feeling please reach out I need it BTW this is my first