I have been in school taking two classes that are usually 16 week courses in a 6 week summer course and tonight I turned in my final paper for English and decided to take my 120 min biology final a day early so I can just be done with it. I waited till almost midnight so my husband could be home if baby girl woke up. He was at a grit house recording a podcast. He came home just as I was starting it. 30 mins into the final she wakes up. He’s rocking her and then for some reason he lays on the bed with her. Our bed is higher (I’m 5’5” and it comes to my hip bone) and we have wood floors. He for some reason either had her laying on him or to the right of him and all I know is i see her on the monitor fall off of the bed and hit the floor and starts crying. He’s still sleeping until I’m halfway to the room and she’s screaming. I could help it but all I could say is “are you effing kidding me!”

I had to return to my test and took another 20 mins shaking while taking it. She seems okay but I am sitting with her in the rocking chair and I don’t even want to fall asleep.

I know it was an accident but I feel like I can’t even rely on him to allow me to get my stuff done. I’m angry cause I did my exam a day early just so I didn’t have to worry about it tomorrow And could just spend my first Friday in 6 weeks just focusing on my kids ( 12 yo also). This whole semester my “school times” were from 8pm till 1-2am because I’m up with her at 7am.

Sorry for the rant but with California’s Covid issues I’m also an out of work hairstylist that hasn’t been around family or friends in weeks