My first time is coming up, but

Hey guys!

I’ll jump straight into it, but tw for intentional weight loss.

This time a year ago I was obese. After a year of eating well and gym I’ve lost 100lbs and I’m now a healthy weight which has given me a kind of confidence I didn’t have for most of my adult (or even teenage) years. I decided to start dating again and ive met someone I really like.

I (23 F) recently started dating again and I’ve been on a few dates with a really sweet guy (29 M) who is super similar to me and I like a lot. Ive never been on a date before, ive never had a boyfriend before.

For a long time I thought I was asexual, I had given up on the idea of ever finding someone or even looking, of ever having sex, but I’m realising now I just needed a bit of confidence, because now despite my inexperience all I want to do is jump into bed with him!

I stayed over at his place the other night (Note: I live in a country where covid cases are now at 0 and there are no restrictions) and we kissed a lot and I feel like the offer was there to take it further. I know he wants to from what hes told me, so I feel like my first time is rapidly approaching and I’m stoked about it.

The thing is though there are still “marks” for a lack of better word of my past issues with obesity and all the weight loss that is very obvious when the clothes come off. I have mentioned to him that the sex part doesn’t bother me, it’s just being exposed. I haven’t told him what I’m self conscious about though. One of the things is that I need skin surgery because I have excess skin from my weight loss that does not look great, but the biggest thing is probably the heamorhoids I have from way back when I had a really bad diet!!

Essentially, my physical appearance is a bit of a “work in progress” - I need skin surgery and “bumhole surgery” 😂

My question is do guys care about this kind of thing or, to put it as ineloquently as possible, do they just want to bang? 🤣 I’m REALLY self conscious about it!!

Any advice is appreciated