Mixed Feeling

I don’t want this to come across as ungrateful because I realize there are women over 40 who are still ttc. I’m 43 and just confirmed pregnant, 5 weeks today. If this had been earlier this year before the world turned upside down, I would be happy. I am currently unemployed with no health insurance. I also have Lupus...in a Pandemic. I had wonderful doctors who I cannot see now. I’m know no one in my family will be happy and say I am stupid. I have a 19 and 17 yr old already. I want to be happy but am finding little joy. Again, I don’t mean to offend. Just voicing my concern in this safe space