First period since birth.

So this is my first period since giving birth. I gave birth to my beautiful angel at 32 weeks on June 11th, 2020. She died at birth due to many health problems. I am a absolute mess. I can’t stop crying, I’m so incredibly angry and just want to stay in bed and sleep cause I feel so exhausted. Any tips on how to not be so emotional? I know every one is different but any tips would be great?