I've been back stabbed so many times by those I've cared about most and I'm ruined by pain. Really wish I was dead. It's a cruel evil world and I'm sick of being a fool. I hate being empathetic. I'm only alive because I have a son to live for and he would suffer without me but how can I get over all the pain I feel in my heart?? It really hurts. I wish I'd just get hit by a car or something but I wanna be there for my son. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭