Don’t know if I want advice or just to rant 😭

So Iv got 2 children ,and just bought a house that fits us all perfectly in a stay at home mum I have a car and drive my husband has a really good job to support us all life is amazing but since October Iv had 8 chemical pregnancys my husband has support me through them and Iv always know he didn’t want another I would say you happy this has happens and he would swore blind he was sad about it .. anyway today I got anoth BFP but this time I have have the support form the hopsital they have put me in Asprin highl dose folic acid and are testing me every 48 hours in 4 weeks tomorrow and my levels are 97 hcg and 48 progrestrone. I told my husband about the positive and he didn’t say much untill he was drunk at the weekend and he was saying he is happy either way with another or without and he hopes we have a boy etc .. fast forward to today he rang and asked what the hospital had said and when I told them they gave me medication to help it stick his head fell off he started saying why are you purposely trying to make it stick 🤔 I was shocked and said why woudnt I and he started saying you had this planned all along you got pregnant on purpose as if Iv trapped him into another baby the thing is because all the chemicals I made aute this month I didn’t catch I took ovulation tests and on the day of ovulation I told him I’m ovulation and please stay away even before intercourse I said to him I am ovulation stop it but he proceeded to carry on . I’m absolutely heart broken all Iv ever wanted wa done last one and tohave my tubes out and have 3 children now I’m pregnant terrified I’m going to have a chemical again with feeling like my marriage has just took a complete turn for the worst 😭

To reply to questions ... yes he would be shocked he has seen how much Iv cried this year i was put on tablets for anxiety because I had a brake down over al of it I had to hold his nephew that was due the same day as mine that I lost and I didn’t let them see it but I cried the full way home int he car grieving what should of been mine now he has done this we’re married in our 30s and have 2 children I don’t understand how this is trapping him 😭 I told him if he dosa t want his baby then to go because I do and I’m going to fight for it like I would any pregnancy weather wanted or not. I’m heartbroken