Was I raped?

During my senior year of high school this guy in my grade started texting me. He has a reputation of hitting on a lot of girls and asking them for nudes. I had a bad feeling about him from the start. I knew that he wasn’t good for me. Every time he asked me if he could come over I said no. One day I was watching the movie After on Netflix and I felt a little excited so I decided to give him my address. I quickly realized what I’ve done and I told him I didn’t want him to come yet he came anyways. He told me he was outside and to just let him in. We’ve had sex numerous times. I felt guilty that I enjoyed it and that I allowed him to come over, but now that I think about it I always say no. He just always pressured me until I’m unable to say no because he’s already here. Once in particular I was on my period and originally gave permission to do anal. When he got here, I changed my mind and said no. But once again he kept pressuring and pressuring.

I’m posting this on here because I’ve always been judged by my friends for going back to him. I just feel guilty blocking him and I enjoy having sex. The times turn out to be enjoyable but I can’t get past the fact that every single time I had to get pressured into it. Also everytime he’d leave he would immediately block me on all social media and follow me again whenever he wanted nudes or sex. I guess I just want outside opinions on what this is.

I feel so violated and so down about myself. I feel like I’m just an object and that I’m not worthy enough of being in a relationship, im just good enough to have sex with. I feel slut-shamed by my peers because I’m a young and single woman who is comfortable with her sex life. I also feel like I just allow myself to be used because im too nice to say otherwise? I honestly don’t fully understand how I feel but thank you for listening.